Sometimes I just simply felt helpless when I can't seem to infuse my advices to you in times of troubles that you are facing. Whenever you nitpick to me about work, I tried my every best to give you the best words of comfort and even making sure I would say the right things to you.

*K and me, we are fine and we are not in a midst of any quarrels.*

You would often shut me up by turning up the volume of the music all the time. You told me, that would calm you down. I accept that but i guess you had no idea that I felt rejected by you. I know that I may not have been through as much as you and i'm naive in my suggestions.. but you never know that i am trying.

I'm definately not one that would just say "cheer up" , "don't think too much" or "tmrw will be a better day" . Because I find those words are effing futile. If such words could do wonder, I guess people wouldnt even need to rant it all out. I hate hearing such ineffectual phrases because people who said that to me are those that do not even bother to understand my situations and comfort me for the sake of it. I don't need that kind of attitude from people.

I really wonder what could I do to make you feel better. I got your favourite sweets and do up lil surprises to brighten up your day. I am trying baby, to do whatever thats within my means to ease your sadness.

Sorry, but I am your girlfriend and I can't just sit back and do nothing. I don't want to be those that's always receiving and never giving. You did so much for me and I never want to take you for granted. I just want to be there for you through bad times too.

Perhaps those words ive said seem like i'm nagging and I should only lend a listening ear. This abysmal feeling builds up only when this happens. We seldom have fights and we seriously have alot of happy good times together. I love you and I want you to know that I am here to support you in whatever you do.


Love,
your girlf.

;11:41 PM